Recently an event happened to me. I had been dreading this for months, bc i thought it would bring so much pain to me, and it would flood my brain with my sinful past. What i experienced, though, wasn't sadness, or even anger. It was joy. I had joy in my heart bc God had healed my heart and shaped me and changed me from what i was. If this had happened to me 6 months ago, i know i would've lost it. Don't get me wrong, i know that sometime in the near future, Satan is going to try his very best to turn this situation against me, bc he knows that this has been so close to my heart for years. But the Lord is my shepherd, i shall not want. I refuse to let Satan control my life anymore. This next month, because, since it is fresh in my mind, i will most likely be thinking about it all the time. But you know what? I have been worrying about this for 7 months now, for ABSOLUTELY no reason. It didn't change anything, it just simply made me hate myself and fall away from God, and I'm sure over the next month that Satan is going to use this to his advantage.
***Im sure that this might be confusing to some people. I wrote this in a hurry because i wanted to get my thoughts down on paper before i forgot them. If anyone wants to know more about the situation and some of the details, i'd be glad to share them with you.
God may seem like he doesn't answer your prayers, but simply wait on Him, because He has plans or you that are bigger than you could ever imagine. Time doesn't heal all wounds, but God's timing does.